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How to turn my vulnerability switch on?

Being vulnerable is something that doesn't come easy for me. I am so use to adapting to difficult circumstances instead of standing tall and saying that I need more. Being that "I'm fine" person whenever I'm asked if I need help or is everything ok is draining. To be honest I'm afraid of being disappointed and let down that I would rather put the burden, worries and stress on myself... Why am I ok with being everyone's shoulder, ear, and crutch when they need me, but too afraid to say I'm not complete and I need you as my shoulder or ear this time around?  I absolutely enjoy helping others and making them happy, but somehow I feel no one should be able to give me the same in return that I must make it happen on my own.  This is hard for me because it’s admitting to myself that I have to face my weaknesses and fears and that's scary. I have to end this dysfunctional pattern. 
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I Lost... How?

Well that didn’t go over so good… My kids you know that ones that drive me a little crazy sometimes are the funniest little people on the planet. So the break I desperately need but can’t take, well I thought I would stand my ground. So I told them I was going to take a small girls trip to Vegas for the weekend. I was like it’s happening no if ands or buts about it. Me: Hey guys’ mommy is going to take a small trip over the weekend to Vegas. Jr: Oldest son (9 years old) Yes! We're going to Vegas. Me: No just me and my friends. Zay: (8 years old) Eyes start watering for how many days. Me: I will leave on Friday come back Sunday. We will facetime all day ok? Jr: Okay while looking confused… Zay: Tears falling down his face... I don’t want you to go. Me: You will be fine you have Daddy and Jr. Zay: When you were little did you ever want to be away from your mom... for all those days (hysterically crying) Me: You can’t be serious, (saying to myself) way

Finding A Balance

I’ve got a confession to make……                      Being a mom of two young boys while finishing up my Master’s degree and working full-time is  HARD! I am walking around with a smile holding it all together, and secretly wanting a break. A break to not have to think about schedules, laundry, homework, work assignments, cleaning, and most importantly what’s for dinner? The break never happens because of mommy guilt, has this happened to you? The pressure is always on, but I did promise myself that I will dedicate at least 30 minutes to myself each day to breathe and refocus. How do you find your balance?